nomad

Life advice from an old’ish dude: find a girl when you are broke. She will always love you, not the money. She will also love you in hardship and she won’t care if you go for a walk or watch Netflix because it’s cheaper. :)

Watch Rick and Morty for the reference.

Im guessing indexing. You don’t know enough of the context of the memories to create a good association and a complete reconstruction of the memory. So there is some very simple recall for hyper detailed things like the structure on my parents first couch. But nothing more complete.

My uneducated ass thought this is a play in Canada and retarded. Had a suspicious numberi of upvotes though.

You are not alone. In fact this is pretty common. My wife has similar struggles:

https://www.simplypsychology.org/avoidant-attachment-style.html

As you already said, it’s caused by parents that don’t give you a safe and living emotional environment in early childhood.