Glifted

It’s tough. BandMix is trying to be the solution to this but its pretty terrible. Any sort of local social media may have postings looking for bandmates. Or you can try to meet people at shows or music stores. You’d be surpried how many people still use Craigslist

If you can afford I would get professional help. This is not something I have experience with personally but I’ve often heard of people not being able to process certain emotions so I would assume its somewhat common. A decent therapist would likely have a good understanding of how to help you navigate this.

If you can’t afford that then talking about on lemmy or elsewhere probably wouldn’t hurt. Even if we can’t offer much advice I figure writing it out like that could probably help you process your feelings on some level

Playing in a band will make you a better musician. Most musicians’ first couple bands suck so don’t worry too much if you aren’t any good at first. Just focus on having fun and improving. Find some people near your skill level and enjoy

They’re planning to come back 😑