• orbituary@lemmy.dbzer0.com
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    4 days ago

    I developed aphantasia. I used to be able to visualize things and now cannot… EXCEPT for in the first 20-30 minutes after waking up. It is quite disturbing since I only recently realized this, but can’t actually tell when the last time I was able to picture or conjure things in my mind visually.

    What’s crazy is that I have no problem conceptualizing the apple. I am highly capable of imagining it. Not only that, I am a DM for a D&D game that’s been going on for nearly a decade - so it has no bearing my creativity. Also, I am an artist and can draw and paint both realistic images as well as stylized or abstract things without problem.

    I wish I could see images again. I do like being able to do so after waking up. Perhaps that’s how I can exercise the skill and try to extend it.

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      3 days ago

      Sorta sounds like your job / routine is making you stressed and unable to focus

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        3 days ago

        This might be it.

        I gave up watching the news daily back after the November election. Since then, my creativity has returned.

        The only logical thing to do is quit my job so the hallucinations will return.